FUCK MEN!!!

well.. today started off interestin.. i was so hyped up about goin and hangin out wit adam.. i sat around till about 3.. then called nate to see what he was doin just to take up some time cuz i was gettin tired of waitin.. went over there hung out wit him and whoever was all over there.. drove around for a while.. started to wonder y adam hadn't called me.. got a phone call from naomi askin me if i wanted to go over to adam's with them.. i was pissed!!! the ass never called me.. he said he was goin to when he woke up.. but it pisses me off.. cuz he's doin it again.. i started to talk to naomi about it for the 1st time in a long time cuz i figured she delt wit it enought the 1st time and she didn't need to hear everything all over again.. but newho.. i told he the short vertion i guess.. that i thought adam was leadin me on again and that he was messin wit my mind.. and she agreed.. but the thing was she didn't even see waht was goin on at the wiggle stick show.. how he kept rubbin my leg and being sweet to me.. and walkin me out to my car and gettin me a flower and how i got a hug good-bye from him... something i haven't gotten in a long ass time.. y does he do this?? i don't undersatnd.. it hurts so bad.. i don't know what to do.. i was thinkin about just not ogin over there nemore.. but i can't do that.. i love hangin out wit them way to much.. but i really can't put up wit the bull shit nemore.. he's so sweet one day.. then doesn't even recognize me the next.. unless he called and invited naomi and stephen over cuz i'm usually wit them... and he figured it would b easier to call them and invite them over then jsut to call me up.. but it hurts damn it.. so fuckin bad :'(.. i hate men.. i really do.. then he called me younge today.. that kinda made me upset.. that mayb that's the reason for all this shit.. because he's like.. 4 almost 5 years older then me.. but GOD DAMN IT!! just let me know waht the fuck is goin on.. one min it's this.. the next it's this.. make up your mind.. please.... but newho.. i'm done wit this.. i'm goin to call someone now.. i don't know who but someone.. i need to talk to someone.. bye